Self reflection, self deception, being home, being away, me, myself, I, cranberry vodka with lime, the parasitic mind, gradual steps and big stops, beginning again, arguments, deception, backward speaking, face to face, the nature of being in love with oneself, the nature of falling face first into the unknown, subtle clues, vague ideas, certainty, disdain, bad tastes, good times, hope, trust, difficulty, anxiety, space, the lack of, universes of self, the infinity of others, wanting to understand it all