March 2nd, 2021

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Now that I’ve created distance between Loren and I, I have the space to see what’s really up. I end up in some strange dissociated state every time I see him-some more intense than others-that I can only identify because I have new experiences I can make comparisons from. Healing is a trip. I wanna go away.

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Rice and beans and chicken, waves of sadness, in n out, yes and no, being sleepy, being serene, feeling things, shifting focus, shifty eyes, unwanted attention, unwavering disbelief, shoulda coulda woulda I’m sure, less yes’s more no’s

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Every day, all day, I thank god for you.

Every moment, every memory, everything was worth it because I got you.

I promise to always try