I’ve been enjoying the last bit of pot I can smoke. I found out that, through the methadone clinic, I can get medical marijuana with no hassle at all.
Dotting my T’s and crossing my eyes.
I release my need for control.
I release any fear, doubt, guilt and shame that I’m holding onto.
There is so much to be done but these days I don’t let it keep me from doing.
Life moves one moment at a time and it’s all we have and it’s all we can do.
It doesn’t have to feel overwhelming.
I am actively choosing now. I choose not to let it get to me. I choose not to get upset.
It doesn’t always have to be a big deal, but it becomes habit- making a big deal out of it.
Relearning response and loosening my fingers to give it some slack.
My peace doesn’t have to depend on anything and that is a revelation.
