I could complain. I could pity myself. I could push you further away but that isn’t what I want. I want you closer than ever. I want you here, home, with me. I want your good days and your bad days. I want your hands on my body. I want you deeper. I choose to let you in.
I can’t wait to meet the baby we made. The human we created. I’ve always wanted you to be the father of my child and this is the reality. You will be a great dad. You are loving and gentle and strong and fun. We are stronger now. Better than before. We have become the people our child deserves. How amazing is that? Thank you for changing me and adapting with me. Thank you for showing me that I am what you need. What you want. I want nothing but you. I am here, now, yours, forever. I will never make you doubt my love again.